Hello all! I feel good today. I’m feeling good lately.
I am generally an active person. I generally feel organized and like I have a plan for my day and my week. I generally feel l I do a good job of taking care of me so that I can take care of my family. But slowly, I stopped doing all of those things.
Thanksgiving hit and then Christmas and high school basketball started. By the end of it in late March I was treading water. Suddenly it was Easter and I was exhausted ALL THE TIME.
I had gain 10 lbs and my clothes were not fitting right and that alone makes a girl feel bad. I was too tired to do fun little things with the kids. I was short and was yelling and I didn’t like the mom I was being.
Somewhere in a 6 month span I stopped taking care of myself and I did not have enough left to give to anyone else. Moms read this all the time. We know we are supposed to take care of ourselves! And not feel guilty! BUT, it was very easy to tell myself I was taking care of myself because quite honestly, I didn’t want to extend the energy I did not have to do one more thing.
Oh the difference a little time can make. At the urging of my husband and the realization I might have been a little crabby I went to get my nails done 2 months ago. It felt good but was like a band-aid. The next step: I bought some wrinkle cream for my face (something I had just stop doing somewhere along the line for God knows what crazy rationale I was using).
At that point I’m starting to enjoy a little time to myself. I’m starting to see that I was, in fact, not taking care of myself. I scheduled a hair appointment and I had my hairdresser die my hair instead of the box die I had used for the last 6 months. And I started working out regularly again, not a lot, but like 2 times a week. I even went to the library and checked out a book (I haven’t started to read it yet, but hey, I can re-check it out!)
I slowly stopped taking care of myself and I had to slowly start again to really see the value. Two weeks ago I started a 30 day workout video program. 20 minutes of exercise everyday and I feel like it is a good workout… I mean, I am dripping with sweat when it is over, seeing some results and it is a great stress reliever. And just this week I started a natural supplement to boost energy.
Why did I ever quit doing all of this things? I feel so much better. I am laughing and joking more. I keep busy during the day doing laundry and meal prep so that my evenings are more focused on the most important 7 people in my life. I am so much less stressed. I found time to do things I enjoy like working in the yard and spending time with other DMD families, this week I even met a friend for a walk around the park.
If you are reading this and you are a busy mom or you are reading this and you feel like you are treading water: take a break and do something for yourself and then make it habit. I feel like my old self again. I would have never let my kids go so long without doing the things that keep them healthy. Not only, I was setting a bad example, but by not being healthy and energized I was not the mom I like to be.